Orcs

I have an odd fantasy: orcs.

Odd for me, at least, because I am a very ordinary middle aged woman who never played Dungeons and Dragons or showed much interest in mystical creatures and Lord of the Rings.

Odd also because in reality I am quite demure - quiet, cautious, reserved - but in my fantasy I am taken, hard, by gangs of orcs.

The idea emerged slowly.

I attended some live action role play events (LARP) where thousands of people dress as warriors, elves, peasants, Lord's and ladies, knights and barbarians - and orcs - and act out epic battles and intrigues over a weekend. When I was first invited I did not think I would like it at all, but I went because a friend asked me to: in fact I enjoyed it much more than I expected.

I made my own costume - most people at such events have magnificent realistic costumes, armour and masks and fake weapons but those are expensive, so I made my own - a simple short sleeveless tunic, a leather belt, and a little latex sword I borrowed. I meant to make pants to go with it but did not have time so I ended up as a sort of petite skimpily dressed peasant warrior in an earth-toned miniskirt.

Orcs there are indeed brutish but intelligent, organised, sophisticated in their way - and to me, as a skimpily dressed female peasant fighter facing literally hordes of orcs - and other fierce warriors and monsters - in battle, quite surprisingly erotic in a twisted way.

At such events there are strict rules of engagement and conduct - no sex references being one - but I started to fantasize afterwards, eventually developing a vivid fantasy where somehow the pretend world became real, with me, alone trapped in it with the strange creatures and warlike humans all around, at their mercy. I recall that fantasy often - living it in my mind, the fierce rough orcs surrounding me, subduing me - and yes, of course, using me, over and over again, brutally, mercilessly, ruthlessly. It's enduring erotic intensity never fails to surprise me - nor to arouse me.

I would play this out, here, if any others share my weird fantasy desires.