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Wash Ashore:

I wake: above the water;
'feel the ache- of your departure:
starting to feel bothered: and-empty:
as the world starts to pass, around-me
my head falls apart-falls apart-
what's within: comes out of the dark-

',out of the dark:

-
but I guess you wouldn't know: 
'cause it seems: you're never home,
how would you find, the time to fetch me out:
when you're buried alive, but safe and sound,
oblivious, to what I go on about, in my- sleep;
-
tell me, before I: sink below:
are we gonna be okay, 
I gotta know so:
: before you go, you gotta disclose;

Am I gonna wash, ashore-
beyond the aftermath of the storm that was born,
are you really sure, this time, 
'dropping the act and all the lies:
'cause I can feel it breaking:- out,
I can't stop the screaming:- now,
the beating of my heart: somehow,
finds it's way to cease-motion,
overflowed by devotion, and broken: promises,
left me out on the open, 'now it's sink or swim,
while ripping-myself, in two,
'trying to see your point of view,
'cause right now: I'm not sure:-

Am I gonna wash, ashore-
-

I reminisce, about the nights, under the sky-
it was just you and I,
but now the situation: flips,
it seems that now I'm passing you by-
you're a lingering shadow: following just-behind, 
I can't catch you, but you're always on my mind,
'the times we fought, the times we lost,
everything I bought, 'everything you taught,
all the pain you blot, 'all the pain you wrought, on me-
-
I feel like, I'm falling out of memory,
a dream, a nightmare, an illusion that will tear,
all that is inside of me, even though:
it might be a mirage:
but it could be real, a barrage,
to pierce me, with your bullets,
if this was your plan, I plunged in, deserted,
'still trying to figure out: 'was it worth it'-
-
'tell-me:
before I sink, below,
>tell-me:<
'Are we gonna be okay,
>tell-me:<
I gotta know, so:
>tell-me:<
before you go, you gotta disclose-
>tell-me:<
>tell-me-:<

>tell, me,<
am I gonna wash, ashore-
>tell-me<
beyond the aftermath, of the storm that was born,
>tell-me<
are you really sure, this time
>tell-me<
dropping the act: and all the lies,
>tell-me<
'cause I can feel it breaking: out,
>tell-me<
I can't stop the screaming:  now
>tell-me<
the beating of my heart: somehow
>tell-me<
finds it's way to cease-motion-
>tell-me<
overflowed by devotion, and broken, promises:
>tell-me<
left me out in the open, now it's sink or swim-
>tell-me<
while ripping, myself, in two,
>tell-me<
trying to see your point, of view,
>tell-me-<
'cause I'm not sure;-
>tell, me;-<
>are we gonna be okay-<
>before you go, you gotta disclose-<

'am I gonna wash, ashore-
 

Posted

The One in the Mirror:

You can look in the mirror-
all, you want,
-
but you can't make disappear,
the one that, stares back:
-
don't shatter the glass just to scream at yourself,
you shouldn't bother doing all these things, on your own:
'there's a place where the soul, likes to dwell,
but at the rate, you're going:
you'll end up alone:
and you can't, just keep ignoring,
the fact that, the rest of you:
has fallen-under, a spell,
willing clawing to:
the entrace of Hell;

These marks on my skin, speak of a story,
oh, the scars that you feel, weren't just born on me-

I, burn in the fields,
addicted to ashes:
and on bleeding heels,
I, dance on the bodies,
of every commodity,
that used to be mine:
but forever it's lost to time

-

You can't, make disappear,
the images from back when you were desperate,
the tongue on your back, when he caresses:
you're shivering form,
and without any pretenses, you felt something tore,
now with no doubt, you are scorned,
with a memory that flashes,
but holes you can't patch in,

'well there's a side, you can't deny, has broken up,
another fire, scorched with desires, to singe up the world,
you're not just a tramp or a whore, no:
not somebody, who fell down a well,
but still, you begin marching,
'still you begin calling,
'still you start, willfully crawling to:
the entrance, of Hell-

-
  The seams, of my reality,
Just strings, still: attached to me,
The scenes, they all, play back to me,
Like a cinema reel, but it's all too real,
The courtyard, of suffering,
  >  my ashes, my ashes<
The past will always burn in me
  >  my ashes, my ashes<
Just what has, become of me,
I yearn for breath, but still stumbling,
I'm sundering, but I just won't yield,
I won't let you steal, what keeps me concealed-;

I;-

'I, burn in the fields >BURN IN THE FIELDS<
addicted to ashes,
and bleeding on heels >BLEEDING ON HEELS<
I, dance on the bodies, >DANCE ON THE BODIES<
of every commodity,
that, used, to , be Mine:
I, follow these flames, >WHY<
until the rooms are dark,
like the beat of my heart,
I, let myself down, >WHY<
oh I, scream in the sky,
Oh, I-

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>burn in the fields,
>addicted to ashes,
>bleeding on heels,
>dance on the bodies,
>to tell you, i'm sorry,
>'cause you used to be fine,
>but now you've grown cold,
>and what had followed:
>was my own soul-

>you can't, make disappear,
the regrets and fear,
try, all you want-
'all you can do,
is look at-<

The one, in the mirror;-

Posted

You can take my hand, i'll stay the same
You can leave me now, i'll keep the chains,
You can say my name, the past still remains;

You can take the love, out from the hate,
While I allow you to, screw: my-mental-state,
I-, see the ghost of your demons,
Coming out so unfeeling, tonight-
So you can say, you changed, 
But all I see is, the lies-

You told me, if only:
I had seen through right-away,
'Cause our story, has torn me,
Time after-time after-time,
-

One day i'll wake, to see the way:
I took the wrong-lane-out-
(Every time you had beaten-me-down)
Yeah, someday, i'll see,
That it was never meant-to-be,
You buried our life, underground-
Inside, my Garden of Sorrow,
Will there be no, tomorrow now-
-

Silence was the way, we spoke in terms,
I didn't have to stay, I made things worse,
and either way, that's what they always say:
'Till Death Do us Part-'
But I was killed from the start,
Black was your dreams,
Empty and void,
So you would make it seem,
Like there-was, no choice,
I- saw your struggles and vices,
And still you claim: you've changed,
Coming back for a hash-up
But you, must be deranged,
Thinking i'd ever take you back-up,
'Cause all I see, in your eyes, 
from mine-
Is lies,

(We're breaking up again, making-up again)
('But i'll get away, this time,)
(We're spacing out again, doing rounds again)
(But, i'll get away this time,)
(We're chasing doves again, making love, again-)
(But i'll: get-away-;)
('Oh i'll- get-away-;)

-

One day, i'll wake, to see the way,
I took the wrong-lane-out-
(Every time you had beaten-me-down)
Yeah some-day i'll see, 
That it was never meant to be,
Oh maybe today, i'll find,
That you're not one of a kind,
You're just a star in a sky,
Waiting to crash down on me,
You're just the rain, sliding down, my eyes,
Flooding from high, an ocean of cries,
'Cause you buried our life, underground,
'Yeah you buried our life, underground-,
'Oh, you buried my life, underground-inside,
My Garden of Sorrow,
Will there, be no tomorrow,
'Be no, tomorrow,
'Be no, tomorrow, now-;


 

Posted

Shatter:

I'm trying to make this work,  you don't make it easy, 
and it always hurts, but when, you see-me kneeling:
you probably think, 'you're always, beneath me,'
'stop trying, to catch, my-feelings,'
you're only a- quick-cash-in-,'
so why'd I let you in, into my heart,
you'll been leavin' pins- and fresh scars-
but still you wonder, why we're drifting apart,
do you even know-who, you are-

'cause when i'm down you hit-me, till I shatter,
mind-over-matter:,
you'll take-my-life, tear it, to tatters,
yet, you'll still say-i'm the Bastard,
who ruins your life, dare say it twice, to me-
when I-wasn't the one, you were after,
'not' the-one, you wanted, to meet:
well, what the hell am I supposed to be:,
the fool to you, or the slave your rule, oh-
'cause when i'm down, you hit me 'till I shatter,
well I could do so much better, leaving you forever,
-
you strike my mind, so many times,
leave me up at night, these tears I cry:,
fall down to the borderless floor,
and there only the first thing, that you-ignore,
when i'm lying awake, trying-to catch, a break,
you'll blow, smoke-in-my face, crack a bottle and hate, on me,
'cause you're so unhappy, with the food that I make,
the steps that I take, to find that laughing, 
man that had taken my hand,
the man, I thought I understand,
but I guess he's in a different land-

'cause when i'm down, you hit me, till i shatter,
mind-over-matter,
yeah you'll take-my-life, tear it, to tatters-:
yet you still say, i'm- the Bastard,
that ruins your life, dare say it twice- to me-
>what the hell am I supposed to be,<
when I-wasn't, the one you were after,
'not the-one you: wanted-to-meet-;-,
well:- what the hell am I suppose, to be:,
the fool to you, or the slave you rule, oh;-,
'cause when i'm down, you, hit me till-i-shatter;
>hit me till' I shatter,<
>mind-over-matter, mind-over-matter, you-<
>'hit me, till-I-shatter;-<
>Shatter-;<
'Cause when you pin me down, choke me, with laughter,
Mind-over-matter, mind-over-matter,
when you push-me-down, your abuse, takes a fast turn,
oh, mind-over-matter, mind-over, matter-;
oh, you'll take my life, take my life-,
>'take my life, take my life-<
>'take my life, take my life-<
>'take my life, take my, Life-<


 

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Splitting Resolve:

What if I should break,
What more can I take, from you
I think you got me so-, confused,
So what more could I say,
Is anything i'll do,
Anything-closer, to being special, to you,

I guess it's such a shame
'Cause every single thought:
It brings me so much pain,
About all that we lost,
I think we need to stay-, away,
Give us time to find a way-, to stay, stay, Together-;
But you make me ponder, forever-for-ever, Forever:

What if I should break
What more can I take, from you
I think you got me so confused, cause I:
'Think I'm losing my time,
I believe you've spun your lies, around me,
Now they're surrounding, and drowning me in tides,
And nothing that came, seemed to make it right,

Do I just pray, you'll see the light-,
that you'll find a way, to feel inside-;

But there's been so many days, 
Where you couldn't see at all,
Too blind and led astray:
To seeing the right-from the wrong,
But you'll still be okay,
Even if today, you just can't find your place:
Cause, I know,-you: always thought: 
we would stay, we would stay, together:
But-I- just: feel, so lost:
Still pondering Forever-for-ever-Forever:

What if I should break >what if I, should cry-<
What more can I take-, from you- >Right be-fore, your eyes<,
I guess it's such a shame >'cause all I do, is hide)
'cause every single thought:,
It brings me so much pain- (all I, feel inside)
About all that we lost:

Oh, what, if, I should cry,
Right be-fore, your, eyes,
'Cause all, I do is, hide,
All, I, feel, inside;

Posted

You're gonna keep taking, 
The things that, all make me
And push me around,
Betraying: everything,
Until I can't see how,
I could turn it around,
You'll breaking me, down-down, down-
But what you don't know:
Is how i've grown:
i'll tear you- from the: inside-out
i'll bleed you out, 'till your just a:
CARCASS DECEASED, TO BE FOUND

So keep, on: hating-me
you'll give me the Energy,
To turn the: tables-on-you, someday:
So you'll stop-standing, right in my way
I hope you're tasting, every-little-bit-of-your: 
Vacant-Victories: they'll mean, nothing: when you're gone:

-

You blame me, evading:
The reasons, you're not happy,
The decisions, you think of in brief,
It's so hysterical, you'll need a miracle,
To make me forget of your sting,
It's grown an infection, that plummets me,
But i'll get over your schemes
And find that weakness-encompassing your:
Actions: completely-irrational:
Persistence: the key to your downfall-
and you're so famished and starved
You're ran by all the jealous-remarks,
Leaving you only-part of yourself
So keep shedding: your morals,
I'll keep letting, you scoff and annoy me,
Until this shell-cracks, and I attack
And every one hears the story:

OF YOUR LAST BREATH, AND HOW IT WAS A GORY:
demise, i'll stab you in your side,
Watch you bleed out from-my: usual-perspective
and i'll make sure you survive, with only  a-bit of life
So it sends everybody-else a clear-message
'Cause there is just no-more-time
It's goodnight for you,
But you'll wake in your new wheel-chair soon
and i'll look at you with a sick-smile, and 
your existence-defiled:
As all that you'll be: will be so plain to see,
Unable to make a sound, you're just a:
CARCASS DECEASED: TO BE FOUND,

so keep on: hating-me,
You'll give me: the energy-
To turn the tables-on-you, someday-
So you'll stop standing:
Stop-standing-right-in, my-way-
I hope, your tasting: every-little-bit-of-your
Vacant-Victories: they'll be nothing, when I 

Burn your home,
And break your throne,
And crack your bones,
And steal your soul-
I hope your tasting: still hope your raking-in, your:
Vacant-Victories, they'll mean Nothing:

When your, Gone

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Breaking Away:

How long has it been, since these connections:
were bent, severed, I think I hit my depression in the end: 
of this storm swelling inside me, 
there are these things, that there's no hiding from-

If I break into pieces, 
lose all my reason, 
let it fly-by the seasons, 
day by day turns into grievance but for what- 

for the times you said you were beside me, 
or is it the way you stabbed my back,
for the years, you held this control,
or how you were slinking in the dark-

But I don't need you, to fix me 
I don't see you, as a retreat,
'cause you don't care the way I do, 
it's not hard to see, that you just use-

So i'm breaking-up, there's no time to waste
to waste it on you, i'm hanging this- 
declaration of your voracious behaviors on the wall, 
Put you, at fault, but not for what's wrong with me
we all have demons, crawling in plain sight-
it's not what's wrong with you:
but the way you do this, dance you do, it's true
there's no time, there's no time: 
to waste it all on you.

Where- did I go wrong, 
I thought family was: a term that was- stronger than this
Oh, am I the one, who's gone corrupt-
did I, fall to the things: I once hissed at, 
spat-down on the floor, at the ideals of one so sore,
but this isn't a script, there's no movie,
this is real, this is me, confronting you:
like I always do, but this time there's a shadow, staring back
threatening to take a crack at me, how unbelievable, 
do you: Really think I made you that miserable
I doubt it, but you're intangible: 
in all the wrong ways:

so i'm breaking-up, there's no time to waste,
to waste it on you, i'm hanging this- 
declaration of your voracious behaviors, on the wall,
put you- at fault, but not for what's-wrong-with-me,
we all have demons; crawling in plain sight,
it's not what's wrong with you,
but the way you do this Dance, you do, it's true-
Oh, it's true, there's no-
time to waste it all- on you 

If I were to break apart, would you pick up the pieces
if I shot my heart, would you bring me: to a hospital, 
if I were to shed my skin- and there's another set
would it be thick or thin, or would it be possessed 
'cause if my bones were to rot, would you know it's me,
if my soul dispersed- would you save me,
Would you Save Me ? 

I'm taking steps, at my own pace, 
to fix this pain in the chest, that can't erase
I can only asphyxiate, my memories
drown out the innocent times
replace them with my
hope to a better place, with better people
scream them out with a: 
plea that i'll find better people, better people then you

I'm breaking- up, no time to waste
to waste it all-on-you, i'm hanging this
declaration of your voracious behaviors: on the wall- 
put you- at fault, but
not for what's-wrong-with-me-
it's not what's wrong, with you
but the way, this-
Dance you do, it's true- 
there's no time to: waste-
to waste it all:
on you.
 

 

Posted

Crumbling:

 

these thoughts I have, keep putting me in my place;

I look at these walls, that we had made;

I take an inhale and I: begin to fall-away,

everything's: blurred and left here out, my-way,

I feel a, burning-in-my veins,

as I begin, to call your name,

but there's no answer-

 

Why did you leave, me,

it's a question: plaguing my mind-

Why do you hate, me 

a perplexion, that-fixates in time,

maybe, it's just me,

a statement, I keep going-back to sign,

no, it can't just-be me:,

Denial, always-wins the fight,

 

but my-hands are shaking, 

and my throats' gone numb,

the ache of these eyes aren't panging:-

rather, it's every-single-lie, I fall, into:

it's every-single-cry: in-the Aftermath,

it's every-tear-you shed, because of what I said,

'every note you left, on my door:

'when you went;

 

But I just wanted, to love you, babe,

oh, you stay-away, you stay away;-

while I, try to find, the mistakes I made,

and you keep at bay, you keep at bay;-

it was a dagger-cut, through the lungs I breathe:

and I feel ashamed, I feel ashamed;-

'cause you know, I can take so much, but now i'm crumbling >crumbling-<

 

When will you see me,

if you, do-at-all, after: the-fall-,

could you believe me,

if I, told-you, all-that-i-do, is stare at these walls, all day-

'cause my heart, is reeling:

but catching nothing yet,

my brain, is seething:-

'from the, war-inside-my-head,

 

what if they don't love-me, anymore,

as I search through the things, thrown on, the floor,

fearful, of when, you find some-one else,

forget-me-, and put the past on the shelf,

 

I can't help, but begin to hate, myself:

'cause I just wanted to, love you, babe,

but you stay-away, you stay, away-;

while I'm trying to find, the mistakes i've made-;

and you keep at bay, you keep, at bay-;

it was a dagger-cut, through the lungs I breathe, 

and I feel ashamed, I feel ashamed, 

'cause you know, I can take so-much, but now i'm crumbling:

and i'm to blame-;

 

-

oh, I just wanted to love you, babe,

-

'I just wanted to love you, babe,

>but there's something-inside-<

-

'I just wanted to love you, babe-

>but, there's something-inside-, me-<

I just wanted to love you, babe,

'I just wanted to, love you, babe, 

-

'you know, I just wanted to love you, babe-;

but there's something-inside-, me,

I must confide, that there is no hiding-it,

I can't set-it-aside, it tears through my reasoning,

but this is still no means,

>cause' I just wanted to, love you babe,<

yeah I just wanted to, LOVE YOU-

>love you:<

 

but I just-can't stop: the rage-

I pull at chains, I pull at chains;-

contempt's on my mind, and i'm struggling-

to come towards your way, come towards your way-

don't give a fuck if you're too-depressed, I'll have my say-

YOU'LL GIVE ME WHAT I CRAVE:

 

but i'm not Justified:

you'll crucify-, me:

I lie awake at night, thinking how it-could-, be:

'know I fucked up, this time:

'gonna die old and: lone-ly,

'cause you were Mine:,

you were my one and onl-y

-

'oh, I just wanted to, love you babe-

'but you stay away, you stay away-;

'trying to find, the mistakes I made-

but you keep, at bay, you keep at bay-:

it was a dagger-cut, through the lungs, I breathe-:

and I feel ashamed, I feel, ashamed-

'cause you know I can only take so much:

before i'm: CRUMBLING 

>CRUMBLING-<

 

but i'm not justified:

you'll crucify-, me:

I lie awake, at night:,

thinking of how it, could-, be,

'know I fucked-up, this-time:

gonna die old-and, lone-ly,

'cause you were Mine:

yeah, you were Mine:

 

but now I see-myself, 

belligerent and lowly-:

reduced-to-this hell:

and only: you hold, the-, key,

'so you could pull-me, out:

go back-to your old-, ways,

or you could let-me, rot

wishing that I-was-, free:

'CAUSE YOU WERE MINE:

you were my one, and only;

Posted

Control and Abuse:

It's either I watch you go:
or you see me fall,
morning light, or separation by nightfall
But you have these questions,
I don't got the answers,
change your perception:
to avoid the banter, 
I prefer the chants from the choir 
then to be undone by this crowned defiler

'Cause we used to be so-close
but now we're on separate roads-
A group with unbreakable bonds:
but you didn't store them in a bank
A party that's all for one:
of selfish souls who cannot take, being alone:
afraid to let go, and go on their own

So I'll try to keep this thing strung together
even though I know I could do much better,
I'll follow you for years, a fool:
be the punching bag and tools,
render myself no use,
until you grow bored and abandon:
this pact that we call "Friends"

'Cause this isn't until the end,
it's all just a ruse,
Control and abuse, control and abuse,
a twisted struggle, but to you:
it's just what you do, it's just what you do
'Cause you're just looking for someone who is lesser than you:
to make yourself feel better, a crutch that you can drag-along
and pretend that you are strong, act like all they've done is wrong
so you could fuel your self-deception, without another mention
hold belief in suspension, to avoid the truth
oh, it's just what you do, it's just what you do

but this is no way to live, nobody to feed:
their desires and wants, insecurities and greed
you keep your people close, near enough to shackle 
these illusionary chains, reigned by threats and fear,
you try all you can to silence the objections
force upon all your projections:
to try to mold us how you like
but there will be signs of life,
until you finally scar us:
with your sick and deluded mind

'Cause this isn't until the end, 
it's all just a ruse
control and abuse, control and abuse 
a twisted struggle, but to you:
it's just what you do, it's just what you do
'cause you're just looking for someone, lesser than you
to make yourself feel better, a crutch that you can drag-along
and pretend that you are strong, act like all they've done is wrong
so you could fuel your self-deception, without another mention
hold belief in suspension, to avoid the truth
oh, it's just what you do, it's just what you do
(It's just what you do, just what you do,
Control and abuse, Control and abuse)

What will it take to get out, and make my escape
I've been up just plotting, day after day
what will it take, to pave a way to break:
these ties that bind me, to my worst-made mistake
How will I find my way out, and back into the light
gain some confidence and the courage to fight
or am I to lose my eyes and follow blindly
are we to keep ourselves, just bound up tightly 
there has to be a way, to make it out the haze
there's gotta be a way, there's gotta be a way...

'Cause this isn't, until the end
It's all just, a ruse
Control and abuse, Control and abuse
a twisted struggle and we're consumed 
It's just what you do, just what you do
nobody would hear us if, we started screaming
not a word to save what's left inside
there's no amount of time:
that could heal me
'Cause you're just looking for someone, lesser than you
to break a recluse and release the refuge,
Release the Refuge


 

Posted

Searching (Skydive)

Everybody, knows: I never go for heights,
But I'm still falling: won't you, give me, more time,
I have your fear of your heart, but your love on my mind,
Your kiss cross my lips, and our feelings coincide,
So what if we're not perfect,
I still think you're worth it,
Who cares if we don't fit,
Even stars don't know when they dim,
But yours is a shooter,
Destructive, yet troubled,
You wish for a future,
Beneath all the rubble,
So, take my hand, and we'll: Carve it, together
-

Well you can call me clueless, and foolish, so useless,
Still won't lose the spark in my eyes, the reason I fight,
You can take me, and rape me, deface me, just break me
But i'll never quit, seeking a friend,
Yeah you can't shake me, erase me, not fading, so easy,
No this is not how it: ends-
'Cause I have a lover, they don't know my name,
Yeah, I have somebody, that i'll meet someday,
It's not just these voices, that tell me the same,
No, it's not all the choices, that led me astray,
So i'll vow before, I see my last dawn,
That we'll find each other, this war will be won,

And everybody knows, I ne-ver go, for heights,
But i'm still falling, won't you, give me more time,
I have your fear of your heart, but your love in my mind,
Your kiss 'cross my lips, and our feelings coincide,
So what if we're not perfect,
I still think you're worth it,
Who cares if we don't fit,
Even stars don't know when they dim,
But yours is a shooter,
Destructive, yet troubled,
You wish for, a future,
Beneath all the rubble,
So take my hand, and we'll: carve-it, together,

'Into these trees for-forever,
The sidewalks, and every sign,
Burn it in the grass in the summer,
And tagged onto every wall,
Our life will be more then they ponder,
Existence now came with some wonder,
So hold me tight:
and i'll skydive out of these endless frights,
Just be my light, and i'll find you, 
some-day-some-time,

Be it rain or snow, i'll steal the show,
Cause there's just magic to behold,
Be still, my betrothed,
Some day we'll find our thrones,
Before we kill ourselves,
No prescriptions cure the hole:
That only you can fill:
So won't you come for me,
Make it plain to see, we got a journey to lead,
Oh, make it sure to know,
There's only one goal:
All it takes is a kiss that you stole,
That will sew up our souls, together, forever
(Together, Forever;)
-

and everybody knows, I don't go for heights
But i'm still falling, won't you: give-me, more-time-,
I have your fear of your heart, but your love in my mind,
Your kiss 'cross my lips, and our feelings coincide,
So what if we're not perfect:
I still think you're worth it,
Who cares if we don't fit,
Even stars don't know when, they dim:
But yours is a shooter,
Destructive, yet troubled,
You wish for a future,
Beneath all the rubble,
So take my hand (take my hand-)
'Take-my-hand, and: we"ll, carve-it, together:

'Into these trees for,-forever,
The sidewalks, and every sign,
Burnt it in the grass for, the summer:
And tagged onto every-wall
Our life will be more then they ponder,
Existence now came with some wonder,
So hold me tight, 
and i'll skydive out of these endless-frights,
Just be, my-light, and i'll come and find you
Some-day-some-time
 

Posted

Fallen angel, bring me grief,
for I'm disease, blind and bleak,
I- see, within your eyes,
The rest of my: very life,
The fallen stars, go so far,
Fly above: my broken heart
Can't you see, I'm hollowing,
You're still free, so don't, follow me, tonight;
-

Broken screams and subtle dreams,
Lead me away from you it seems,
Opened eyes, but closed off minds,
Starlit skies that swallow tides,
In my arms, you should be,
But my choices are too upsetting:
Punishment, unrelenting, for my crimes,
So invisible, you swear I'm pure,
But with every step, I'm, just not sure,
I'm a toxin unleashed, to the droves:
Of, society, I weep:
All my spells that bring forth hell,
From my voice, the tainted well spills over, over, over: again,
You're gonna find out I'm
Bothered, too troubled, 
To be the father, you hope for,
My tears flood the floorboards,
And sink so you don't see,
The demons, that chain onto me:

Well, how could I: ever-tell you,
I'm a killer, I'm a sinner,
I'm the reflection in the mirror, I fear:
I'm a pacifistic psychopath and a sadist,
I'm a, possessive sociopath:
And I really fucking hate it,
But that's the facts, I can't turn back,
So if I were you, I'd get, away-
Before you're just another victim in a satin sack,

Fallen angel, bring me peace,
Send your armies, onto me,
Purify the black inside,
Maybe I can find my life, again-
But fallen stars, go so far:
Fly above, my broken heart and,
Higher then I think I could, ever reach,
They're gonna pass too fast,
And carry on, without me,
Oh darling, can't you see,
I'm trembling, suffering:
But you're still free, so don't:
Follow me, follow me, tonight,

'Cause you shine, so bright,
I can feel the cold of my soul, evaporate:
When, I'm with you, if all feels all right,
But I would corrupt you,
That's why, I don't, wanna love you,
Why I'm, afraid to hug you, 
The thought makes me sick,
'Cause I'm miles beneath you,
Don't wanna steal you, 
Can't let myself smother, your light 
>so don't follow me tonight;<

Fallen angel, stay away, from me
I'm wrapped in curses,
I want you to live, hapilly:
So void of struggle,
Safe and sweet,
Please, leave me in the rubble,
Let me sleep:
Under the fallen stars: they go, so far,
Fly above, to leave me in the dark
Oh please, can't you see,
That I am, swallowed in two-deep
Oh please, can't you see:
I am: hollowing, trembling, suffering,
But you're still free,
So don't follow me,
Please don't, follow me, tonight;

Posted

Mental Collapse:

Temptation, elapses, dilapidates:

all my fear, my lust, my hate,

the worry, washes away,

all my self-conscience thoughts,

all of what I lost,

it falls down the well;

 

I'm not:,

just your average-toy:

i've been broken and replaced,

with new parts added:

I didn't want, to take:

but you made me,

yeah, you take me higher-

just to shape me, degrading me,

you're tainting things, 

I never thought possible

>my senses are slowly dulling<

 

my eyes, reprise, the stage, that's set,

all for me, to go about my life,

but what's not yours, sure isn't mine

and i'm wrapped in vines, to purify,

everything that they think, is wrong-

 

can you feel it, turning inside,

can you peel it,

deprive the flesh from my withered form,

so you can see it,

all the evil within, that i'd like to pretend,

it just isn't there-

>oh-;<

it just, isn't there-;

-

 

you'll deny you had, a part in this-

but encircled in lies-

you can't cauterize, and blacken it out,

it's immortalized,

and has burned in your pores,

'cause you, are, the prosecutor

of my future and dreams,

the thief who reins my entire being

held by, these chains

>but you don't represent it<

you have ties, into my psyche and I,

can't break the stem connection,

your reflection, is in my veins

the more I stare back:

I feel like, i'm not the same,

forcibly changed:

to play my part in the play,

and then sink, down: endlessly;

 

>the screams are hopeless,

this blood, is porous,

my skin, has borne, the curses of you,

my arteries are draining,

replacing their fluids with your poison,

i'm turning to a druid,

who's thrown reason-away,

a puppet, you hold the strings, 

to bring the, murderer back in the game-;

 

>well, can you feel it, drowning aside,

my visions blurring,:<

and the darkness confines

the soul, that writhes,

>can't you hear me, listen clearly,<

under the breath, 'cause i'm still within;-


 

but nobody see's;-

 

'nobody sees, my crimson teeth,

that have birthed all the greed in my sins,

>someday it will eventually win<

nobody- can,

look through the sky

that's shifted out of my iris,

the panic ensues, 

and the voices: scream 'dive in'

'why don't, you cry, bitch'

'why won't you, you die, bitch'

'give up, and dive-in-'

>oh-ho-oh-oh-, oh-;<

 

can you feel it, turning inside,

can you peel it:

deprive my flesh from my withered form:

>why won't, you die, bitch<

can you feel it, drowning aside,

my visions blurring:

and the, Darkness that confines,

the soul, that writhes

>Why won't you die, bitch<

can you hear me, listen clearly,

so you can see it:

all the-evil within,

that I like to, pretend:

It Just isn't there:

IT JUST ISN'T THERE-;

>why don't, you cry, bitch<

>why won't, you die bitch<

 

>i'm not;

your, average toy,

i've been broken and replaced:

with new parts added,

that I didn't want to take,

you're tainting things,

I never, thought possible<





 

Posted

I sneak around, with my scary eyes
Searching, searching, for another bite,
Oh, I crawl around, with a scaly hide:
Hiding, in-wait, for you to come outside,
I walk these streets with my sixteen-feet,
That scuttle slowly, from beneath,
My teeth grow sharp, from everything, I eat,
Still gnawing, chewing, feasting on your flesh,
Oh, I never, think i'll ever, get, some, Rest:

-

'Here comes a young-man, into the night:
I'll prowl, howl, to set the mood-right,
He's un-phased, 'must not have a dime, left:
He's been busy, drinking, himself-to-death,
No-idea, where he mind might've went,
He's clueless, useless, with such bad breath,
Searching-sluggishly, for his car-keys,
Little, did he know, he left them on the seat,
He curses, was it really worth it,
He'll know quite soon, when he finally-sees-me:

'Cause I- am, hungering-for-blood,
As much as i'd like- to, see you struggle in-the mud,
It'll be quick, painless, not much time to waste,
For you're mere-moments, from being my bait,
I know it might seem ruthless, selfish:
A tad-bit, a little-devilish:
But I just cannot-wait, I'm gonna-take a taste,
And you'll disappear, and nobody is near,
To save you: from, your, Fate;
>Gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch<
>Gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch<

-

Oh, I, hunt-about, with my terrifying-gaze,
You might see the glow, of my teeth,
Or the sickening-smile-underneath, that keeps me:
Wanting, lusting, rushing, plotting,
For whatever I should meet:
Devour the children, but don't, eat-the deceased,
They're, far-too far-gone,
And they lack the sweet defeat,
Of their adrenaline, hits me like a heroine-dose,
I envelop their fear, and all the tasty-nodes of:
Regret, sadness, begging-madness that:
Seeps-into-their-flesh-and-bone,
Leads them to their only home,
An unmarked gravestone,
For what-ever remains, of their body,
The townsfolk, find-them, unrecognizable-;
  >and-plunge-them-down-a-hole<

'Cause I am, hungering-for-blood-
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!<
As much as i'd-like-to, see-you, struggling-in-the mud,
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!<
It'll be quick, painless, not-much-time-to-waist:
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!
For-your, mere moments, from-being, my-bait;
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!<
I know it might seem ruthless, selfish,
A tad-bit, a little-devilish:
>Oh, I sneak-around, with my scary, eyes:<
    >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!<
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!<
'But i-just cannot-wait, i'm gonna-take-a-taste,
  >  oh, I crawl-around, with my scaly, hide:<
   >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!<
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!<
But i-just, cannot wait: i'm gonna, Take-a, taste!,
  >  oh, I walk-these-streets, with my sixteen-feet:<
    > gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!<
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!<

BUT I-JUST-CANNOT-WAIT, I'M-GONNA TAKE-A-TASTE!
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!<
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!<

  >  oh, my-teeth, grow-sharp, from-everything, I-eat-<

  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!
  >  gobble-gobble, crunch-crunch!
 

Posted

Iris:

Oh Iris, your mindset:

was too young;

but i'll admit, that I was blinded:

by true love;

Sometimes I look, inside your room,

and see it all, to just feel you, again;

 

Why did all-of-this: suddenly end;

-

I read the passages:

inside the notebooks,

none of them make sense;

 

I try to recall, every single action,

like some deranged private-detective,

but all that i've suspected:

doesn't seem to reflect the truth;

 

'Maybe some-other day,

i'll find out what happened to you,

'cause all I know,

is where you happened to go,

didn't come with a disclosure:

just pages-of numbers:

>nobody answers, nobody-answers:<

 

Oh, Iris, your mindset:

was too young;

but i'll admit, that I was blinded:

by true love;

 

seems you'll never be on the:

front porch, probably buried in the:

grave-yard, filled with my mistakes;

i'd take them all back, feels a little too late,

but Darling know that i'm hunting these clues:

For you, For you-;

>and that i'm waiting for you, too<

-

 

Taking a deep breath, as I settle in:

into the silence, that only has broken-me,

I recline in, as I begin to dig-away-

tearing the room-apart, to find some way:

to bring you back, 

you had to-of, left tracks

you're not too clean:

at covering your trace;

 

But the closet and your drawers:

hold nothing, but your clothes,

and piles of: books on the floor,

the boxes in the back:

seem unopened and worn:

and they're all empty:

my sanity is peeling-away,

I run out your door, 

before I begin to break and cave,

can't stay in too long:

'cause it's just not the-same;

no, it's just not the same, when your:

gone-everyday, I seem in a haze,

'cause I recall like it was yesterday,

that i'd let you borrow:

a couple of dollars,

to make it through tomorrow,

but now all there is, is sorrow;

 

Oh, Iris, your mindset, 

was too young, >where did you go<

>where did you go<

but i'll admit, that I was blinded,

by true love >where did you go<

>where did you go-;<

 

-

>Where did you go,

it could be rain or the snow,

but your surrounding,

me like a storm;<

 

>Do you remember your home,

'cause it's still, waiting,

it's still waiting for you, for you, for you:<

 

{and i'll be waiting for you too}

 

But now i'll never see you-

 

well, i'll never-see-you-on-the:

Front porch, probably buried in the:

graveyard, filled with my mistakes,

i'd take it all back, feels a little too late,

it feels a little too late-

'cause now I watch out by the window,

holding onto a last hope,

that i'll find the car,

that has the right plates,

but they've probably been changed,

yeah, it feels a little too-late, to save you,

and i'm sorry, i'm so sorry:

for what your going through;

 

Oh, Iris-

>come back to me, come back to me<

Oh, Iris-;

>come back to me, come back to me<

Oh, Iris-

>Come back to me, come back to me<

Oh, Iris-;

-

you're coming back to me in:

 

PIECES-;

>box by box, comes to my door<

of what I wish I hadn't been looking-for,

 

'cause you're all coming back-to-me,

'all-coming-back-to-me, in:<

 

PIECES-;

>I'm so forlorn, as I, pack-you-away<

to bury you- another day-

 

but it's all coming back to me,

you're all coming back to me-;

 

In pieces;









 

 

Posted

Part of me, Too:

I don't think, i'll make it: to sleep tonight-,
I can't, seem to: shut my eyes-
I've tried and tried,
but nothing will calm my mind,
i'm searching too hard inside,
to find out if I'll make it out alive,
-

It's fine, it happens,
sometimes the past can be so savage,
there are the days, you look in the mirror:
and you see the thing you want to ravage,
there's no need for a rapture,
when I can't even endure:
all of the things that happened,
am I an addict, to the pain,
do I like going batshit-crazy-insane,
is there a part of me,
that would rather be,
grabbing a ticket to board a train,
knowing that, the rails collapsed,
so then I don't have to take blame,
please just take aim,
or give me a hand so I can stand:
to wash the blood back down the drain,

I have, these visions:
of: dying too soon,
if I, don't fix it:
well they might find: me:
dead in my room,
from where did it bloom:
this doubt that is sprouting,
from the inside-out,
I think I know-who:
but it's just no use,
'cause they're a part of me too,
-

it's funny when you pick your friends,
you don't know where they start:
or where they could end,
the ones in your head,
might be better then them:
but you might be too cozy:
in a relationship of sin,
self-indulgent: pleasures of your whims,
you converse more: in your walls,
they think you're becoming sick,
oh, but pay them no mind,
tell them your fine:
and pray to yourself they don't ask again,
with a shotgun: to the back of the head:
you're held hostage: fear slowly creeps in,
you beg someone stops it:
you're scared to walk, 
you can hear them talk,
the fire in their bodies:,
wants to crucify you for your deeds,
the circles, under your eyes,
should be the evidence:
that you wear a disguise,
there's tears inside, that can't purify
so you hide inside:
'cause you don't think that you can handle it,
or the things you've done,
why you feel on the run,
or the reason every, last moment,
feels like it might be the last to live
-

I have these visions:
of dying too-soon-,
if I don't fix-it,
well-they might find-me:
dead in my room-
from, where-did-it bloom:
this doubt that is sprouting:
from the in-side-out-,
I-think-i-know who:
but-it's-just-no-use:
'cause they are:
a part of me too:

but I wanna be apart,
reset it to the start,
I've been reeling for a solution,
that doesn't involve any pills,
or tears out my heart,
I don't wanna change,
but I wanna be saved,
won't give myself up for grace,
I'm way too good at saving face:
and I don't say names,
but I got about six on myself,
and they are not just demons,
they're the words i'm bleedin',
but I don't have a mouth to open and yell,
to swallow it all, to scream for help,
the black pulls me inside,
like a child in a well,
and the water from above,
fills the chasm enough,
to drown out everything that i could tell;
-

I have these visions >visions<,
of, Dying too soon, >too soon-<
if i don't fix it >if I don't fix it:
well they might find me: >find me<
dead in my room-, >Dead-in-my-room<
from where, did it bloom, >where did it bloom<
this doubt that is sprouting, >doubt that is sprouting<
from the In, Side, Out, >Inside-out<
I think I know who >think I know who<
but it's just no use >it's just no use<
'cause they are, they are,
'They are a part of me too-
>but I wanna, be-apart,<
>reset-it-all, to the start<
they're a-part of me, too-
>I don't wanna change-<
>but-i-wanna be: saved<
won't give myself up for grace,
i'm way-too-good at saving face:
I don't say names-; >'be-cause they're<

part of me too

Posted

Save my Soul:

 

Side by side, we all walk
Fortunes hide, for their prophet,
Martyrs die, sealed in coffins,
Liars pry, into your daily-life
A lovers touch, is never real
And a mother's cry, makes wounds that cannot, heal-

My father said, take your shot,
Before you wind up dead,
I see stars, in the sky, they all shine,
Wonder what it takes,
Just to break that wall,
'Just to stand up tall,
Keep on moving on,
Sing your song till dawn >till dawn<
I have wondered why,
I'm so depressed, just a mess,
Now I know inside,
It's my fault I flee,
It's just me, deceiving my dreams,
Yeah, it's all me, you all have seen, i'm just disease-

So please help me back on my feet,
And help me drain this devil that sowed seeds-, in-, me-
Pull out your tarot cards, 
i'll look inside your Cry-stal-, Ball-
Don't care what it takes,
I will beat out the pain,
Just to save-, my-, Soul-;
-

My mundane faith, has led me astray,
It needs-to-be stron-ger-, now-
For this fleeting hope,
Keeps up burning out,
I'll relight it's coals,
Just to keep, the, Sounds, at, bay-
For i'm not breaking down,
I will scream and shout,
Nothing will destroy me, now,
I will a-wake- , free-
So these chains don't bind,
I will step-outside-someday,
I'm already attending these shines,
To restore what i've lost,
And confess all my crimes, so you might just try, to:

'Help me back, on my feet,
And help me drain the, devil who sowed seeds-, in-, me-
Pull out your tarot cards,
I'll look inside your cry-stal-, ball-
Don't care what-it-takes,
I will beat-out-the-pain,
Just to Save-, My-, Soul-

No I won't just, lie down and succumb to these woes,
I have been told, the prophecy,
I will turn-stone, if it sanctifies, my greed to none,
I will live-alone, if it purifies my lust
i will shed my flesh-and-bone,
To come into the fold,
And achieve, the righteousness, that, you gave us: All;

(So please help me to breathe,
Please help me to see,
Please teach me, to believe, and)

(Save-,my-, Soul-)
'Save-, my-, Soul-;

'Please help me, back on my feet,
And help me drain, please help me drain, the:
Devil inside, the Dev-il-inside- who, sowed seeds-in-me,
Pull out your tar-ot, cards-,
I'll look inside your, cry-stal, Ball-;
(Please help me to my feet, the devil sowed seeds, in me)
(Please help me to see, please teach me to believe and)

Save-, my-, Soul-;

  • 1 month later...
Posted

Hide and Seek:

 >  it's like if you and me<

  >  it's like if you and me<

  >  it's like if you and me<

  >  It's like if you and me;<

-

 

it's like if you and me,

were somehow meant to see,

that we, were never really good for each other,

'cause you believed in dreams,

but I doubted the things, that you, wanted to be,

  >  so I'll blame myself:<

for all the things that, we once were,

'cause there's no, happily-ever-after for me,

and you already found another-guy,

I'd bet everything that he still tries,

to make you forget me,

  >  I should have just behaved, myself<

and I keep looking at our history,

flipping through scrapbooks,

wondering if I was just the source: 

of your misery,

-

 

But now you've come,-back, to find, me-

but I'll just, keep running-away,

you say you're happy, it taunts me,

I gotta go, before you show, because I know,

That you have grown and i'm too slow,

i'll catch the cold, and rout my disease in the snow,

 

it's like if you and me,

were playing hide and seek,

you searched up in the trees,

I was hidden in the leaves underneath,

praying that you don't find me-

 

because you'll invite me to your wedding,

where I don't belong,

and I know I should just be forgiving,

but the pain still comes on too strong,

like if I was a boy, trapped in their bed,

scared of the demons, the dark represents,

it's way too intense, can't handle the suspense,

so please, don't be mad at what I said-;

 

'but i don't wanna see you, wed'

-

 

I get your card inside my mail,

another to the fireplace,

because I know I should be excited, for you,

but I'm still a little-too-frail, these

questions that keep entering my-mind,

I would sail, just to find a quiet place,

so that I could buy me, some-time,

because the pondering's incessant 

and sometimes takes over my life

and I still don't think I could be there yet,

I still got my feet wet,

and I don't want my joy for you to be lies,

but will it ever be fine,

  well, I guess I could have been spared this hell:

if I would have been more considerate,

would I be waking next to you, feeling so well,

or would I still of fucked it up,

I don't think i'll-ever be, able to tell that for myself,

 

and now you've returned, to haunt me,

like a devil, clawing for my soul,

with with the best of intentions,

you only want me as your best-man,

and so you search all-around,

but I will just never be found-

 

it's like if you and me,

we're playing hide and seek,

you searched down by the creek,

but I was already upstream,

just-hoping, that you can't reach me-

 

because you got everything ready,

playing your favorite song,

but my chest is feeling heavy,

as if the rain turned to a blizzard,

throwing hail and icy skewers,

to pin me down, into my place,

I guess it's too late,

suppose the only thing to do now, is save face,

so I will give you my grace, even-though, I begged-;

 

'but I don't wanna see you, wed'

'cause it starts, from my heart,

numbs my hands and my fingers,

i'm just standing there

a familiar fragrance lingers,

as you pass-by me,

wearing what i'd describe as best,

and their smile's possessed,

walking down an aisle seeming miles,

but I know it's my trance,

as I take one final, last glance,

of what we could of been together,

and while nothing lasts forever,

the fact it's me again who severs hope clean,

tears-me-apart, 

with this ring in this box,

and the room completely packed,

I try to blot out all the thoughts

don't want you see me crying, yet

but now it's past the vows,

and with only seconds so brief

it all comes back to me-;

 

as if it were you and me,

we're playing hide and seek,

you'd find me, so easily,

knowing just where i'd be,

and then you'd steal a kiss,

one that i'll never forget,

because the roles have switched

and you are now hitched,

and now the party goes,

feel like the entertainment at a show,

you suddenly pull me in so close,

into embrace that, I used to know,

way back before, I said-;

 

'but I don't wanna see you wed'

>and I still  blame myself-<

no I don't wanna see you, wed'

  >i should of just behaved<

oh, I don't wanna see you,

I don't wanna see you, wed;

'because this still feels like if you me:-

 

'feels like if you and me,

it feels like if you and, me-

 

were still meant to be, not friends,





 

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